"...somewhere out there lies a truth to be found.. only where when and by whom..."
where once i believe, now i only pray
Friday, October 24, 2003
you speak of the present more den the past but dont you know the present would soon come to pass?
10/24/2003 08:18:00 AM
Thursday, October 23, 2003
i really want that tatoo.. not for you but for myself.. i fear one day i will forget though i frantically deny it now more to reassure myself den to reassure you.. i don't want another anymore.. i think i have found smtg i won't mind keeping forever.. but den again.. forever is so short.. it's quite a joke.. always trying to stay away from all these things cos you cant fall out of love if u have nv fallen in it.. but now.. even with the future so definitely defined.. i still crazily walk fore... not with the conviction that i can change it for i know i cannot.. and i am just being selfish to ask you to bend ur life for me.. and i know i will not.. but because i have this weird trust in everything abt it.. how everything would be ok.. how it would be ok i duno.. but that it would.. how everything jus slipped into place and how everything becomes back to normal even after all those quarrels.. sometimes i really wish 4 you to say something.. to say anything which may at least give me something to hold onto.. that all this is not just a dream.. but i know your pride is forever preventing you... i understand.. no.. actually i dont.. i just try to anw.. i see you trying too.. in yr own small ways.. but i guess the presence of every1 else just makes it so impossible.. but i wont dwell on it... hope the aust trip would turn out right.. the final piece of jigsaw to our memory bank.. after that we will all awake from our little dream..
10/23/2003 06:43:00 PM
Saturday, October 11, 2003
yday was the best day i had for a long long while.. i shant write abt it cos it would just not turn out right... =)
10/11/2003 08:20:00 PM
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
am i just bored or is it a tinge of sadness i am feeling now? i duno.. i just woke up and somehow whenever u wake there is a momentary feeling of lost but i think it's all coming back to me now.. the word bye can be really cruel but i find myself saying it anyway.. we all will.. i find myself purposely making life difficult for myself.. almost as if im a masochist... 'cos i dont want to get too used to being happy.. i think it's all a habit.. being too happy for too long will only make sadness even more sad than it already is... it's a bit like an auto stabilizer... to make sure there are not too many flauctuations in my moods.. haha.. sounds weird.. oh and i just found another usefulness of exams.. it distracts you from the bu zhi de de shi qing.. wad do u mean by that yuting....? parting?.. ending?.. or just the plain pain of saying good bye??...
10/08/2003 03:09:00 AM
