"...somewhere out there lies a truth to be found.. only where when and by whom..."
where once i believe, now i only pray
Monday, June 09, 2003
i just wanted to write something here which i thought about a long time ago but just didnt have the time to put it in... as my jc life draws to an end.. i would be fooling myself if i were to believe my frenship w/ the people i met during my 2 yrs here will remain intact... time will slowly but surely erode most if not all of my ties with them.. i promised yanling i would return to RJC in 2025 when we both are 40 for a drink.. but i know and she knows...it's not going to happen...
i hope.. that these people will not remember me for who i am..but what i did... be they good things or bad... for is it not better that people recall..."hey u know there was this boy in my class in jc who did this and this.. "... den for people to go..." eh u know this guy from my jc called terence?... yea but i dont have the slightest impression of what he was like..."
6/09/2003 06:50:00 AM
Thursday, June 05, 2003
oh my god it seemed like forever since i last came back to this hole of mine.. but thinking back on the past week.. it just seem like a blur of events intertwindled with weird dreams.. i guess in a way Matrix isnt such a pack of bullshit... it's really getting harder to distinguish truths of falsities...but i think i am one of the 99-9% of the people who choose not to question.. yes.. blue pill thank you very much... arx! the hols are here.. actually for the sake of specifics it's the last day tomolo but as usual im on leave.. applied leave..hehee...school's a bore.. life's a bore.. honestly.. without friends.. without family.. it really is pointless living... i wonder what goes thru the minds of those comtemplating suicide?.. i wonder if they would be thinking of the people and things they would leave behind them... or the hell they would face after life... death is such a untalked abt thing.. i guess it's jus that people aint really accustomed to speaking abt it.. but it really is such a powerful thing.. the line which every1 has to cross.. the line with no turning back.. it's impossible to know what exactly happens when you die.. do u jus pop out of existence.. is there life after death?.. it's creepy how im so fascinated by death.. i think im sick.. hmnmm... i wonder...
6/05/2003 06:52:00 AM
